Lyrics

Oh God, I think the shouting has stopped for the night
The voices in my brain were starting to bite
But now they’ve gone quiet
Maybe they’re just tired

If I were with me, I think that I’d feel alone
My mind and my heart are trying to be better, to grow
But their attempts are so feeble
I know neither of us sleep well

What do you do when a person
Can no longer give you the patience
You didn’t deserve in the first place?

So much I’d do over again
If I’d known I was sick in the head
But here we are now
Just gotta figure it out

Every sadness, every fear, every rage
Traces back to a deep-rooted seed of shame
And I didn’t even know
When I was alone

But my family they were scared for me
And my friends just knew half-versions of me
And with you I can see I don’t even know
The half of it

So much I’d do over again
If I’d known I was sick in the head
But here we are now
Just gotta figure it out

So much I’d do over again
If I’d known I was sick in the head
But here we are now
Oh God help me figure this out

Oh God, please fix me, please fix this, please fix us
Oh God, please fix me, please fix this, please fix us
Oh God, please fix me, please fix this, please fix us
Oh God, please fix me, please fix this, please fix us
Oh God, please fix me, please fix this, please fix us
Oh God, please fix me, please fix this, please fix us

I tell you “I’m so sorry” and you ask “what for?”
“My life”, I say, “can’t hold it together anymore”
You tell me “dear, you’re so close to finally seeing
That you weren’t really ever
The one holding it together”

“You can’t do it over again
You know you’re a bit in your head
But I’m here with you now
And you don’t have to figure this out

You can’t do it over again
You know you’re a bit in your head
But I’m here with you now
And you don’t have to figure this out”

So we went on with our day
Knowing it would be okay
And we took a deep breath
Trusted God with the rest
Another breath we don’t deserve
Another day, another grace

Oh God
Oh God